I set up this blog at the beginning of February, planning to start it off with a blast on Ground Hog Day (February 2). I thought it to be pretty symbolic since I started about a dozen personal blogs and kept abandoning them. Only to start over with a new one a couple of months later. It reminded me of the movie Ground Hog Day, where the guy wakes up at 6 AM every day to live the same day over and over again. The only way to get out of this loophole proves to be changing his behaviour. So that is probably what I have to do as well. Change my blogging behaviour and stay focussed on this one blog. Even if the stories I write make me crinch when I read them back. Just for once, let me accept my writing failures and grow from them.
So here I am, on March 9, more than a full month later than I planned to start. But today is the first day of my new life as a blogger and I think I am ready for it.
Not sure if other bloggers struggle to write when hard times come along. That seems to be my biggest issue in blogging. When I feel great I feel like writing, but when I feel down I don't. Which often resulted in the death of yet another blog. This time it almost killed a blog again, even before I wrote my first post. Because the cat love of my life went up to heaven shortly after I set up this blog site.
We had two cats, Twinkel and Yuki. Both of them had been with us since they were kittens and both of them turned 13 last Fall. I had always hoped they would reach the age of 20. But in February God (or the Universe or whatever you like to call it) decided different. Yuki all of sudden got really ill and within 48 hours we had to make the difficult decision to let him go. Acute renal failure. It totally caught us by surprise.
We have had many pets during the years, but truth be told, the connection that I have with the cats is a very deep one. And Yuki was the one I felt the deepest connection with. My sweet little cat son. The grief about his passing hit me like a hammer. Now, a couple of weeks later, the raw edges of grief are slowly smoothing out. But still, every time I look at a picture of him the tears still come up.
Life is like the economy, there are big highs and deep lows. But it is time for me to just accept that and not let that interfere with writing. After all, writing is supposed to be therapeutic. So I am going to give blogging a try again.
This time with a blog called 'That Seventies Girl'. Because that is what I am. A girl, born in May 1974. Which means that in a couple of months I will reach the beautiful age of 44. Wow, it sounds so old, especially compared to most of the bloggers that I follow myself. But it still feels so young. If there is one thing that I learned along these years is that I never stop learning and growing. And with Yuki captured in my heart forever I am going to jump on this blogging road again. Let's see what the journey will bring. Please feel welcome to follow along!
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